whats with change?

and growing up
and becoming something new

whats with mistakes
and
experimenting
and
water polo?

what what what is what -

today: :

i didnt eat very much
i got sad
i got happy
i worked
i watched a wonderful movie
with perfect friends

i smoked to make up for not smoking the last two days

i celebrated and felt scared
because
everything is moving much faster than i wanted it too.

i was playing the lion king
maybe karls right maybe it cant be beaten.
even though i swear i did it as a child . . .
its been a long time since then
i proved that to myself today.

music music music music
inside my computer! !

this update was very livejournal - weird.
i tried to write normal!