Thursday, September 23, 2010

shit post

life rushes

a few months ago my brother made a baby
her name was isabella
she was born last night
and died shortly after.

even though i never knew her
and haven't met her mother
she was a part of my brother
a part of my extended family and blood.

so many unexpected things
why can't they all be wonderful?

Friday, September 10, 2010

Seattle seattle seattle :

here has been nice

i still need a job
need one real bad but,
i know it will happen - eventually.

ive been reading a lot
my mind i suppose feels fuller

i miss home
bellingham had its troubles
but goodness
it was quite wonderful.

there is a lot of walking here
bus is expensive and everything is so close
nothing is more thank forty minutes by foot from one another.

there are friends here
they all have real jobs
so hanging out isnt what it was in bellingham.

everyone is doing their own thing
and you are expected to do your thing
while they do theirs - and then
you are all expected to meet
once a month for a drink at a fancy bar.

ive been cooking
and not drinking
its nice really.

still no real internet,
this connection is stolen from a bar on the corner
it works well mostly.

everything is always moving.
(obviously right?)
ive just never been so on my own before
and i miss the little things that pushed me through a day


those things.

in a few months i know ill be more than content
but right now its hard
nice, interesting, wonderful - but - hard.

oh golly.

life is life is life is -

updike is amazing
chrono trigger is sic.

miss you all
x x